Fixation

I could lay a flower down at your door

And never show up again

I could write you a letter to explain

Why I'll never live up to your expectations

I could fill a thousand pages with

My faults and flaws, and still you wouldn't see them

I could wear you down to your bare breath

With a single whispered goodbye

But who am I, to kill the sky

Who am I, to burn in your eyes

To counter time, I swallowed seconds

To deflower life, I unbuttoned her dress

And now you see, the monster I am

And now you believe, oh how you ran

So quickly, it seems, there's nothing in me

That meets your approval

I could lay this shit at your door

Ring the bell and disappear into the world

I could write my own obituary

And still you wouldn't weep at the words

I could fill a thousand shot glasses

And still I couldn't forget this

I could tear you down to your bare skin

And still I wouldn't be sated

But who am I, to live a lie

Who am I, to burn love down

To its filtered ends, choke on the heart

Of the matter, this flattery will get me

Nowhere, who am I, anyways

To stand here and argue with fate

Instead I walk the miles away

And find myself, every morning

At your door, who am I

To go too far, without your blade

In my back.