Moksha

I'll keep working towards the dream, and so many will continue to foster their hatred of me. I can't say it's my fault, I can't say you weren't warned. I am a handful, it takes a lot of soul to be with someone who dares to live so fully. I am not afraid of failure, not afraid to take the big risks when they count the most. Maybe that has scared away some, but for those who know me, it is the only path that is worth following. I refuse to settle for the slave wage future that lies before a path of complacency, and I've finally traveled far enough to see all of my sacrifices start to pay their own dividends. I've written it down in poem after poem, spoken the words in whispered conversations with the ones I've loved, I would not be happy with less than the complete fulfillment of my capabilities. It's not easy, and it might come close to killing me, but as I've said, I will not die of having failed to live. 

This is my world now, I do not fault you for being too weak willed to remain at my side through this, but I do fault you for blaming me for your weakness. I do fault you for treating me as if I was supposed to lie down and accept any less than what I have given. Still, may you have the best that you're capable of accepting. May happiness find you in those places you dwell, but they are no longer the places I live. Life, for me, is there for the taking. I gave every opportunity for you to see that, and you didn't. So it is time for me to move on.

All too often those close to me in a relationship get hung up on my words, they doubt the veracity of my sentences. They ask me, "How can this be you, I've known no one like this." I assure you all, this is who I am, all fire and passion and life. Even if I could change that, I'd be a fool to do it. I live for the beauty in a single molecule, up to the beauty that is each and every woman I have loved, and the world at large that carries so much more than I've yet had the opportunity to touch. My soul has been strengthened by every hit that I've taken, my love has grown with each and every person that I've met, and it may take a strong person to accept that, to understand who I am, but I've got time and patience and the drive to get up every time someone tries to break down the man that I am. 

I don't blame anyone who is not built to handle me, but I will remind you that you were informed of who I am when we first met, that you had ample opportunity to decide that you weren't strong enough to share in the gifts that I give. I am a creator of great things, a wordsmith who knows how to follow through on dreams, a star whose light traced would be found still burning. Of that, I do demand the same level of ambition and passion, the same willingness to fight for what really matters in this world. All things come and go, save soul. I will always seek that out in those that I come to know. The only thing that stopped you from reaping the rewards of what we sowed was you, and I refuse to linger on those that won't allow themselves to grow. 

I don't seek the easy path, never have. I don't seek the complacent, complacency bores me. I seek those that are unafraid of living life on every level, those that have the confidence to dance with fire, to live beside an open flame and know that their strength of character will keep them from getting burned. I seek those who look at life and demand more than a 9 to 5 and a whie picket fence, those that demand the experiences that life has to give. I make every day a cherished memory, I ask no less of those that stand with me. Passion rules my heart, that will never change, because without it I could not be the man that I am.

So a promise to the strong willed, and a warning to the weak at heart, I offer the world, but you must have the will to accept it. I carry the key to every locked door, it's up to you to step through them. It will never be easy, but I speak from personal experience when I tell you, it will always be worth it.