Conception

I have gazed into the eyes of god

Long enough to show the devil's reflection

I have lived at the core of the fire

Long enough to expose what burns in me

I have chewed on the wings of angels

Long enough to know the trajectories of the fallen

I have cut into the flesh of dreams

Deep enough to see a heart still beating

I swim in the abyss of my thoughts

Blackened and bright and ever-evolving

Whose elements converge on the highways

Of a strangled mind, extricate them from clenched fists

The weak-willed blanket me with lead

A futile attempt at binding me in death

But I have seen through eyes long blinded

A light beyond their depths

And for all the darkness that swells within me

It is pure fire you taste on my lips

I have gazed into the eyes of the lost

Long enough to show their unsettled debts

I have lived bound tight to your cross

Long enough to bleed out every weakness

I have chewed on the sinew of a sinner

Long enough to know the taste of the false

I have cut into the truth of a savior

Deep enough to see through the vapors

To a world free from the confines of order

To a world designed without borders

Whose heavens, each morning

Reach down to kiss her shores.