By Mourning

I wander through a darkness that swallows

Through shadows that suffocate in their thickness

Through barren landscapes painted in the throes of depression

Through skies curtained closed with drapes of rain

I seek not pity, nor redress

I trade not my sadness for sympathy

I stand 'neath these squalls quiet

And teach myself how to fall like the rain

I love the gray the same as the blue

Adore the black that obscures the truth

And heavy though my heart is

It is only ever weighed down by you

I ponder in a room full of gallows

Which has strung up my hope

Which has lifted me up from the ground

For the pleasure of watching me choke

I seek not confession, nor regret

I ask not for the love I suffered best

I lie, comforted by your pallbearer's hands

And savor the chill of your caress

I love the absence you've filled me with

Adore the poisons that beg me forget

And as drunk on love as I have been

Sip by sip, surely, I'll manage one more glass.